Bang, bang, bang! Man, have I got a headache.
Do you ever have those days where things seem to be going so well...life is on cruise control and it seems like the engines are firing on all pistons when all of a sudden you feel like that same engine just threw a rod? That was today.
I'm amazed at how quickly discouragements can come and from the most unlikely places. I'd rather not go into details except to say that I found myself really mad today...at myself, primarily. I allowed something that should have been so trivial to totally trainwreck my day to the point that I feel like it negatively affected my teaching tonight and continues on to this moment. I'm hoping that spitting it out here will be therapuetic. So you may want to click away at this point.
Actually, I've noticed that the times those kinds of discouragements happen tend to be on days I have to teach. Hmmm. Even more interestingly is that they happen right when things at church are going well and we feel as though we're getting some good momentum going. One word is said and, psssssssst, the air is let out of my balloon and I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders...or so it seems.
Scripture says that we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against evil forces in heavenly places. I know that to be very true, but it's often difficult to separate the source from the "messenger" (or should I say carrier, like the host that carries a germ from one location to another). I find myself developing hard feelings which come so quickly and so intensely that it is difficult to sort it out before they become deep-seeded. It seems at those moments when I need to pray most fervently are the most difficult times to do it. I just want to stew. Am I alone in that? Probably not.
Actually, this whole issue isn't really that earth-shattering and tomorrow will probably bring a much better perspective (I hope!). It's just that sometime when you feel you're running up against a brick wall, you strangely feel the urge to stand there and bang your head up against it awhile. You ever feel that way?
Uh.....yeah...me, neither.
Labels: David C. Price, Personal
posted by DAVID C. PRICE at 8/29/2007 10:03:00 PM
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